WOW

Me olvide de como el mundo suele cambiar en minutos.

Todo los planes futuros, todos los sueños recurrentes...han sido
puestos en "hold". Inclusive parece que tendre que cancelarlos...

Escribo desde una fuerte caida....el 18 de agosto estaba llegando a la cima...

hoy he caido de nuevo...estoy en el piso...o mas alla, he caido por un abismo...
las heridas duelen, muchisimo, no se si podre levantarme mas...

y si me levanto llevara la marca de esta caida...muy adentro..y no se la mostrare a nadie...quedara ahi, dentro...

...asi como Frodo nunca recupero de la herida que le hicieran los "ringwraith" en el Señor de los Anillos...

De ahora en adelante mi vida si cambia...

De ahora en adelante (al menos que un milagro ocurra en la proxima semana)...
cuando me vean...sabran que parezco el mismo pero no lo soy...

En serio, el dolor me ha consumado...

Podre sonreir, podre gozar, estar ahi, sere yo, pero adentro la sangre no corre como solia correr, va lenta...en penitencia...por que tiene que tener cuidado de no sobrellenar a este roto corazon...

Un corazon loco, desquiciado...que todavia , ante el desastre, sigue amando...y asi seguira...
cantando, no importa lo que ocurra.. algo asi:

I, I will be king

And you, you will be queen

Though nothing will drive them awaqy

We can beat them, just for one day

We can be Heroes, just for one day



And you, you can be mean

And I, I'll drink all the time

'Cause we're lovers, and that is a fact

Yes we're lovers, and that is that



Though nothing, will keep us together

We could steal time, just for one day

We can be Heroes, for ever and ever

What d'you say?



I, I wish you could swim

Like the dolphins, like dolphins can swim

Though nothing, nothing will keep us together

We can beat them, for ever and ever

Oh we can be Heroes, just for one day



I, I will be king

And you, you will be queen

Though nothing will drive them away

We can be Heroes, just for one day

We can be us, just for one day



I, I can remember (I remember)

Standing, by the wall (by the wall)

And the guns, shot above our heads (over our heads)

And we kissed, as though nothing could fall (nothing could fall)

And the shame, was on the other side

Oh we can beat them, for ever and ever

Then we could be Heroes, just for one day



We can be Heroes

We can be Heroes

We can be Heroes

Just for one day

We can be Heroes



We're nothing, and nothing will help us

Maybe we're lying, then you better not stay

But we could be safer, just for one day



Oh-oh-oh-ohh, oh-oh-oh-ohh, just for one day

(david bowie, heroes 1977)

Y mientras tanto, ese mismo corazon estara pensando igual que el policia que coleccionaba latas de piña conservadas esperando que su ex lo llamara en Chungking Express de Wong Kar Wai:

(v.o) Somehow everything comes with an expiration date. Swordfish expires. Meat sauce expires. Even cling-film expires. Is there anything in the world which doesn't?

gives a can of pineapple to a passing street person. The street person looks at the can and throws it on the ground.
Street person: It's expired. Don't want it.



If memories could be canned, would they also have expirarion dates? If so, I hope they last for centuries.


Que viva la memoria que me mantiene vivo...

Que viva y que al contrario de lo que parece, jamas expire...esa es mi unica esperanza en el dia de hoy...

quizas mi unica esperanza en los dias que me quedan...